I miss it.
My home country.
In psych, we learned that we are more likely to remember memories that have a certain scent, or noise, or something that makes it stay in your long term memory. Well , damn right. Every time i spray on my favourite perfume, or put on a song in my own language, it makes me miss it even more. I dont understand why it is, but i want to go back. just for a while, just a little.
I dont even think people bother reading my blog, not like it matters but i just wanted wanted to share this with all of you. All the trouble, adventures and good times have left us and we have nothing left but the memories that i wish to relive.
Rejection
Been there. Done that. Feels like the world is crumbling down on you and you finally understand what they mean when they say the truth hurts. It feels like its all a nightmare, but you cant wake up. Its not what you wanted to hear, but it’s what you heard. Its not what you were wishing for, but it’s what you got.
Yes, I’m talking about the horrifying experience of rejection, especially your first.
It’s painful. In not talking about college rejection or not getting the job you wanted. I’m talking about something that can hurt you in a way nothing has ever hurt you before: rejection after trying to take a step towards what I like to call a romantic relationship.
There are 2 types of rejection :
1. Getting rejected by a friend/romantic interest
2. Getting rejected by a stranger/ acquaintance
Let me tell you from personal experience, that the second one hurts most. So to all you who got rejected by a friend, cheer up! At least they really mean it when they say they want to be just friends! The remedy to this type of rejection is a deep convo with the rejectee (is that a word?) and some man hunting with your gal pals. Also, it’s okay to feel awkward around him. Give it some time , nothing is gonna get fixed over night. Avoid any further talk about why you were so madly in love, and don’t flatter him too much ;)
As for the number 2 girls, welcome to the club. I’ve been in your shoes before and I gotta say, IT SUCKS. Rejection from a stranger ( or almost) may mean any of these things:
a) they judged you based on your appearance only
b) they have judged you based on other peoples opinions about you
c) they simply don’t care enough to get to know you
4) you do not interest them.
But not to worry, one mans trash ( not you per say) is another mans treasure.
So what that cute guy from calc doesn’t remember your name after you’ve helped him with homework a million times? And what if the guy you asked to your prom says no? Or the one at the coffee shop who refuses to give you his number after chatting for a bit?
You’ll learn to love properly only if you’ve failed at it before.
Nobody gets what they want all the time, and same goes when it comes to boys. So yes, even though when I got rejected I was crying like a 2 year old baby who’s candy got stolen, weeping on my moms lap , letting her pet me. But I learned something that I have never learned before. Not every guy I like is going to like me, and not every person will like you as equally as you like them. If I didnt try, I would probably be sitting on my bed wondering why he isn’t answering my text , but instead I had a great night with friends , not having a care in the world about he who shall not be named.
He’s just not that into me, and that is that.
I want to end this on a positive note: to those who have been rejected, at least you had the courage to try unlike many people, instead of just wondering ‘what if’ for the rest of your life. ” it’s better to cross the line and suffer the consequences , than to stare at the line for the rest of your life.”
To those who fear rejection: save your time and effort and ask him straight up. There’s a 50 percent chance that you’ll have a boyfriend by next week, or if you get unlucky, at least you know now to move on to better things and new guys that are awaiting you.” to have something you’ve never had before, you must do something you’ve never done before.”
Xoxo , moi
befreeandbeloved asked: Twinnnnnn. What happened to your twitter?? We haven't talked in forever. :(
oh my god. i feel terrible! i was kinda grounded for a while so i decided to close everything including tumblr … but now im back <3 yayyy miss you
